Ramblings of a Phoenix in Flight

I spend my day navigating crisis after crisis. I put out fires and extinguish embers.

I stoke imaginations and plead with brains to process the plethora of information I throw at them.

I attempt to impress upon my students the importance of caring for others, and making a positive impact upon the world.

I am a mother, and a father. I am the one they choose to hate, and the one they also choose to love.

I am a fighter, I will not give up. I am a believer; I want to watch them succeed.

I am a caregiver for small cuts and products of broken homes.

I walk the line to do what is right for my students while doing what the lawmaker says I must do.

I balance a life full of hope and promise with their life of more hardships that I will ever experience in my lifetime.

I choose my battles, but there are none I won't consider.

I am a Teacher, hear me roar.

I am a Morgan School Phoenix, watch me soar.

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